LIVING IN SELF-IMPOSED EXILE IN MY OWN HOMELAND
“Only dead fish go with the flow”
The Press Club of Sikkim conferred the
“Khangchendzonga Kalam Puraskar 2012” award to journalist-cum-writer Jigme N
Kazi at a function in Gangtok on July 17, 2012. The following is the full text
of Kazi’s acceptance speech:
(L to R) IPR Secretary KS Tobgay, Chief
Guest CK Shrestha, Sikkim Observer
Editor Jigme N Kazi, Press Club Advisor CD Rai, Press Club General Secretary
Joseph Lepcha and Press Club President Bhim Rawat at the Press Club of Sikkim
function in Gangtok on July 17, 2012.
Hon’ble Chief Guest, Secretary IPR, Press Club
Advisor, Press Club President, distinguished guests and friends,
On Receiving the
Award: I feel very privileged
to be here today to receive the Khangchendzonga Kalam Puraskar award from the
Press Club of Sikkim on its decadal foundation year. I am told by the Press
Club that it had “unanimously decided” to confer this award for my “outstanding
contribution and dedication” made during the last three decades (1983-2012) in
the field of journalism.
I believe that by conferring this award to
this long-time black-listed man, who is forced to live in self-imposed exile in
his own homeland, the Press in Sikkim is sending a clear message to those who
care to listen. And that message is loud and clear: the Press in Sikkim wants
to be more free and independent and those in power and the people at large should
take note of it and respect its stand.
I enjoy doing what I do – be it eating,
taking a walk or writing. I seek no reward and recognition in doing these
things even if what I do benefits those around me.
People often criticize me of being stubborn
and always swimming against the tide. Let me remind them of what US
vice-presidential candidate Sarah Palin said: “Only dead fish go with the
flow.” Living with walking corpses all these years has been a very painful
experience. It is better to be exiled in foreign shores than having to undergo
constant suffocation at home. However, if this is the cross that I was born to
bare then I must live with it whether I like it or not.
Yes, we have more journalists and more
newspapers today than when I started in this profession 30 years back. But I’m
not too sure whether we are more free, objective and independent in our
reporting. What is more important in life is quality, not quantity, and this also
applies to the Fourth Estate, particularly when so many people depend and look
up to the Press to make the right decision.
Sikkimese Society:
If we cannot uphold certain
basic and fundamental values of human existence such as freedom, democracy,
justice, self-respect and the rule of law we miss the opportunity that life
offers to each one of us. The first indication of a society’s degeneration is
when individuals live and work only for themselves. Sikkim is on the verge of
being a dead and decadent society. Our constant efforts to camouflage ourselves
will not work in the long run. We will be fully exposed when the time comes.
We locals often distance ourselves from the byaparis, the business community, for
encroaching into our economic and political rights and interests. Little do we
realize that while they sell potatoes, tomatoes etc. we are the real byaparis. We have sold our king, our
flag, our country, our distinct identity and political rights. Not content with
this we are still selling our hills and valleys, our lakes and rivers, our land
and people, our religion and culture, and worse of all our self-respect and
dignity. Is it really worth sweating it out for such people?
Sikkim Politics: Me and my kind have lived through this bitter
period in Sikkim’s history. In our efforts to fight for the common cause we
have brought down five chief ministers and made four chief ministers in the
past so many years. We did this for a
good cause and without any selfish motive. We are not to be blamed if our political
leadership continuously fails us and lets us down the moment they come to
power.
I took leave from the Fourth Estate at the
end of the year 2000 to make my personal contribution to Sikkim politics when I
was convinced that those we backed were betraying us and the issues we raised
for petty considerations. Unlike many others, I could not hang around and hide
myself safe and secure in a small corner when I was convinced that we were
being led to a dead-end street. I left active politics after three and half
years in August 2004 when I was fully convinced that I was heading nowhere and
those around me were still deeply involved in petty politics. There is no
future for Sikkim and the Sikkimese if our political leadership – ruling and
opposition – fails to rise above mundane things and continues to mislead the people
while making great promises.
It is futile to fight for the distinct
identity of Sikkim within the Union if the leaders of our larger community are
not sure of who they are, whom they represent, and what they really want.
Nepal’s political situation, where ethnic communities are being reduced to a
minority in the land of their origin, has still not opened our eyes. This is
because while our head is still not clear our heart is full of greed. When will
we ever live in a place where the
mind is without fear and the head is held high? When will this non-stop looting stop? Corruption
has reached a point of no return. Disillusionment has set in and this seems to
be irreversible. These are dangerous trends in a sensitive and strategic border
State like Sikkim.
India’s
Role in Sikkim: Even if our political leadership has failed us time and
again, India must live up to the
expectations of the Sikkimese people. If it continues to ignore the hopes and
aspirations of those who sacrificed their country so that this nation may live
in peace and security there may come a day when Sikkim will become a hot-bed of
international politics. We may not see that day but that day is not afar if
India fails to honour its commitments made to Sikkim and the Sikkimese people
during the takeover.
The gradual dilution of our distinct
identity, political rights and social harmony originates from New Delhi. The
erosion of our unique and distinct cultural identity, the systematic manner in
which seeds of division are sown in our social fabric, and finally the
destruction caused to our fragile environment and ecology cannot and must not
be easily condoned. We cannot blame our leaders only; we, too, have shamelessly
become agents of division, disunity and destruction. We have sown the wind; we
will surely reap the whirlwind.
Hope and Gratitude:
I’m grateful to the Press Club
of Sikkim for recognizing my work and honouring me on this very special day.
This is the time and the moment to renew our pledge for a strong, united, free
and independent Press in the State.
On this special day I want to remember those
who have helped me in my three-decade-long career. Some of them are late Chukie
Tobden, Suresh Pramar, Devraj Ranjit, Tenzing Chewang and Pema Wangchuk. I also
owe a deep sense of gratitude to the Chamling Government and to those who worked
or in any way associated with my printing press and publications.
Living the way I did is a risky business and
I want to say how happy and grateful I am to my wife Tsering, her parents, and my four kids – Tashi, Yangchen, Sonam and
Kunga – for letting me live my life freely and dangerously for so long.
I hope my endeavours will light up your path
and help you to bear the burden of being free and independent in a hostile
climate in the days and years to come. My message to you on this day comes from Rev.
Jesse Jackson: “Stand up, don’t bow! Stand up, don’t bow!”
On Myself: French Emperor Napoleon Bonarpate (1769-1821)
once said: “There are only two forces in the world, the sword and the spirit.
In the long run the sword will always be conquered by the spirit.”
I have already said “I have accepted the
death of my dreams” a few years back and I stand by it.
However, I have filed my petition in the
court of Khangchendzonga, Sikkim’s Guardian Deity, to seek justice – for
Sikkim, the Sikkimese people and for myself. I am still patiently waiting for
the verdict. That this award should come at this time and in the name of our Presiding
Deity is not only very auspicious but meaningful as well.
Thank you all, both for this wonderful award
and your determination to preserve the integrity, independence and freedom of
the Press in Sikkim.
(Full
text published in Sikkim Observer,
July 21, 2012)